I’m a new mother to a beautiful baby boy, also a wife for 3 years and my husband and I have also shared two shih tzu puppies for the last 4 years. We love each other so much and can’t help but feel like our life together was completely and utterly meant to be. But my life before my husband, growing up – was less than ideal. I’ve struggled with it for years and now that I’m a mother, I can’t understand exactly why or how I could be treated so poorly as a child. Looking into my son’s eyes and holding him tight, I can’t imagine the horrible, terrible feelings that I endured as a child because I was not wanted or loved at all. If I was, it was minimal and I didn’t feel it. This blog is about my journey in life.
I had hoped so very much that when I met my husband, I would be welcomed into a loving family that wanted me, as much as I wanted a family to call my own. Again, I’ve fallen short in this department. I have married into a family strapped with deep issues as well, which has caused a lof of additional and unnecessary anxiety in my life. I may not have always handled it well – having to also deal with my past and sort through this at the same time I deal with my husband’s family. But I’m human, I’m on a journey through life – just like everyone else. And I’d like to share it with the world, with whomever reads this and maybe I can make a difference and let people know they aren’t alone when they go through struggles in life.
I’ve had a lot of lonely moments and to know there is someone else in the world who can understand your pain, even a little bit. Makes a world of difference, I believe – I’m still in search of it myself.